you don't know who Papa M is?

WHAT!?
why not!!?
Here....let me show you, shushshushush.

to continue

I think I just worry about not doing enough and not being myself 100% of the time. Thats all. And everyone probably has that same concern and I guess the only way to get away from it is to do more musically and to not give to much thought to how its being judged. ANYWAY.
Here is some music that is Sunday afternoon on notes.

To no one in particular

I AM SO ANXIOUS

I am managing to keep myself awake with some truly unresolvable concerns...well, ones that can't be resolved at 3am in any case.
I'm going to write them here because a) nobody reads this blog anyway and b) I'm of the understanding that this might help me sleep.
Its hard to make any of this sound right, so I won't bother...it'll be a jumble. well, whatever. ITs funny because one of the main worries I've been having lately is never saying or writing things when I think them; because how are you meant to be remembered and your thoughts taken if nobody ever hears them? I tread so carefully because I've got this strange notion that art and pretensions go hand in hand...I don't actually believe that, I have nothing but the deepest respect for anyone who publicly points themselves and their ideas to a wider audience....I'm just so scared of being taken in the wrong way, that I almost become...apologetic or defensive.
someone is at the door

Judee Sill

The history of this singer is both bizarre and tragic; I won't go into details here and now, but have a read of the wikipedia entry on her. By rights, she should have been in the same position as Joni Mitchell, and I guess even she was a bit miffed by the lack of success and acclaim she received. Both her records are beautiful, intricate masterpieces - its like nothing else; gospel, baroque and country...totally and utterly unique.
This song is a particular favourite of mine, the piano line is perfect.
Please go and buy both her albums immediatly.

Balcony

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